I am saddened and nearly heart broken by a video game of all things... its a curious circumstance. is this the rpg video game the new paper back novel? for those that still read paper backs, you know whatI mean.. loosing yourself to the story, page of end pages of different worlds with different characters, relating to them, in approval or scorn of their choices but none the less turning page after page of story...
the emotional investment one places in those books, has come to me in this game.. I will not name it, as though its my saving grace, or diamond in the rough. but as i listened to her song, as I felt her voice slip past the hardened angered person I normally am. my heart gave pause, my skin became tangable and alive with goose bumps. as her song played, I felt it inside my body, as though my innards had goose bumps as well.
a heavy lump began to mass in my throat, and it was all I could to hold back memory after memory of myself, in a kind of reflection... I layed my head low, allowing her music into myself.
it was all I could do not to hold my resolve and not begin to cry. i wanted to cry for her song was of saddness and hope, but I wanted to cry for her as well, as in this game my character had an invested intest, only to betray her at a critical moment, and when my memories began to flow it was even more of a reason.
many here do not know me well enough to know.. but for me to remember something of my past is a feat, to be achieved only by the godess and gods themselves..
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