today  i am so filled with anger.  getting shafted at work. getting shafted at home.. the world is so full of manipulations. "what can you do about it so chill" i hear that alot lately. it drives me so mad. i don't want to chill, i want to fight, i want to change the shit that is wrong. period. i want to rage and yell into the depths of the people around me. they all have forgotten me, at least until they need some thing.i need to act but i am unable. i don't control myself but i loose my control daily..  and im so mad i'm ready to give in and let go.. just scrap and fight until  theres nothign left.. so tired. so hurt, so angry.