Have you ever spun around on a merry go round wheel thing? or had someone else spinning and not stop? you try and try to hold on but the faster it goes the more your forced away from the center to the edge. you know if you could just regrip and pull yer self up to the center again you would be okay, least for a while. you try it, you know its not a good idea, you dont know if your strong enough to get a good grip, you reach, your foot slides and you fumble for the nearest thing to hold on to. dangling off the edge you realize you should have just held on in the first place. now the park bulley sees this happening, laughing and yelling your dead if you fall off the wheel..
well that is how my life has played out over the last few years. it doesn't alway feel like that, but hearing about old friends buying homes, lucking out and getting a better job, getting cold hard cash in large lump sums. mean while I'm here trying to get anotehr job, sometimes working two or more at a time. Im hired by sears but their not calling me to work. I want to work. im tired. im tired of being dum, and unaware of the world around me. Im tired of being taken advantage of. and Im tired of not being heard.
I wanted to play on the swings. not the merry go round. and now im gonna be like the fat kids on the tire swing that throws up.
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